Claustrophobic

Maybe I don’t belong
but I don’t care anymore.
I may fail…but I wont change…

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22 Responses to “Claustrophobic”


  1. 1 Keshi August 6, 2008 at 8:00 am

    Beautifully expressed!

    **Why is it that sometimes the closest of the people around you find it so difficult to comprehend something that even a distant onlooker may notice with the slightest of difficulties.

    thats so true and very common. I think the reason is that what’s too ‘close’ is sometimes too ‘unclear’, whereas what’s ‘far’ is ‘crisp and sharp’ to the eyes, most of the time..

    think abt it :)

    Keshi.

  2. 2 Zubin Saxena August 6, 2008 at 9:16 am

    Thanks.. :)

    Yes you are right…and to add on to that, its only when someone moves far away, comes the realization about the importance of that person being close to you.

    So ain’t it better not to overlook them when they were close in the first place.. :)

  3. 3 phoenix/raka August 6, 2008 at 10:08 am

    >>Why is it that sometimes the closest of the people around you find it so difficult to comprehend something that even a distant onlooker may notice with the slightest of difficulties. Do they tend to overlook or is it just too trivial to react. Why is it that you have to say things despite them being the hardest to say.<<<<

    hmm this has happened to me so many times and i have felt even more unhappy. the reason why, i havent been able to comprehennd coherrently but what i feel is, when we are depressed or grieving we retreat into our shells [conciously or unconciously] it is tough to make sense then to near and dear ones who are confused.but u know one has to understand our loved ones are not mind readers and we in times of distress become complex. its easier then to take and make sense to a complete stranger because the fear of being rejected or judged never plays on our minds

    am i making sense here?:(

    beautiful poetry btw :D

    *HUGS*

  4. 4 Keshi August 6, 2008 at 11:31 am

    **and to add on to that, its only when someone moves far away, comes the realization about the importance of that person being close to you

    I agree!

    **So ain’t it better not to overlook them when they were close in the first place

    somehow it happens…unfortunately.

    btw I came here again to perv on ya lol! I know Im bad :(

    Keshi.

  5. 5 Paradox Philic August 6, 2008 at 1:36 pm

    Well buddy…. if nothing else this made you come out with a beautiful expression :)

    Hang in there!!

  6. 6 mayz August 6, 2008 at 5:22 pm

    i guess its more to do wid d things being taken for granted by d ppl who r close to us…mayb they know we r strong enuff to overcome them…they want us to stand on our own n find our own path

  7. 7 Zubin Saxena August 6, 2008 at 9:21 pm

    @Raka:

    *when we are depressed or grieving we retreat into our shells [conciously or unconciously]*

    Hey thats a nice take on it. And you are making perfect sense. True…!! We do get into shells but maybe we do it because we believe that our near and dear ones can break that shell and get us out from that state. Isn’t it that the toughest times bring the best out of a relationship?
    Maybe we expect too much…but wouldn’t the world become a perfect place if we stop expecting..!
    Anyways, more or less, I agree with you..

    Thanks about the poetry..

    *Hugs you back* :)

  8. 8 Zubin Saxena August 6, 2008 at 9:29 pm

    @Keshi:

    *somehow it happens…unfortunately*
    ..Yes..sigh.. :(

    perv..?? LOL..Oh comm’on you are the best. I would love to be “perved” upon by you.. :P

    XOXO

  9. 9 Zubin Saxena August 6, 2008 at 9:35 pm

    @Paradox Philic: Hey thanks..I hope it helps me come out..stronger.. :)

    @mayz: Well..lately I have started believing exactly that. But slight supervision and support is always expected. In the end though everybody is on their own.
    I understand that…but it still hurts…why…? :(

  10. 10 keshi August 7, 2008 at 4:15 pm

    *perves at request this time*

    lol HUGS Zubin ur really sweet too! :)

    Keshi.

  11. 11 kausmay August 8, 2008 at 3:45 pm

    seems these words are coming deep from your heart..!!it reflects how emotional you as a person is. :) ..!!your inner instinct reflects your true self..!!i just wanna say reality is not always what you see or hear…!!my personal experience will counsel you to lessen expecting things.Life is not what you get..!!Life is all about what you give.:)

    Apart from that I just wanna say ..!!this one is really touchy :)

    GOD BLESS BRO…!!:)..!!

  12. 12 Che August 8, 2008 at 5:14 pm

    Which is why i say, its understood that I would be misunderstood.

    Dont worry it happens to everyone and at alarming regularity.

  13. 13 Divkiran August 9, 2008 at 1:16 am

    I think its cuz we let some of our closest buds to take us for granted…n thn thy get used to it

    And Zubin…as far as HAVING to say things is concerned, i think sumtimes its very mportant to talk…to mention wts difficult to express….cuz sumtimes the other person may really be clueless…this ways atleast u know tht u have done ur part ….n if the othr person still dosn care or bother…well thn maybe u gotta rethink the relationshp/frndsp

    Hope i made some sense….or ws it jst too much gyan

    LOL

    Loved ur blog….blogrollin u cuz don wanna miss it :)

  14. 14 Zubin Saxena August 9, 2008 at 2:07 am

    @Keshi: ty…HUGZ… ^-^

    @kausmay:..ahan..you are saying that because you know me that well.. :P
    *lessen expecting things.Life is not what you get..!!Life is all about what you give*

    I know..and you know that I know as well..but think of it. Is it really possible to just stop expecting, wouldn’t it become a perfect world then? I may be an idiot to confess but perfect is scary to me. If everybody stops expecting, the world would be on halt. And what about expectations from one selves aren’t they the fuel to success..personally for me.. To expect is as important as any other emotion in this world.. ;)
    I hope you agree bro..
    tk cr..:)

  15. 15 Zubin Saxena August 9, 2008 at 2:16 am

    @Che:
    Well thanks..Its nice to know that I have company in this.. :D
    *i say, its understood that I would be misunderstood.*
    lovely…I am going to write this down somewhere.. :)

    @Divkiran:
    hey welcome to my blog.
    Well…you are right. But if we have to SAY it every time and MAKE them understand…wouldn’t that be equivalent of asking them to take us for granted. :O
    Its a vicious circle..:D

    No its not too much. I always welcome…free wala gyan…:p

    It makes me happy that you liked my blog..Thanks.

  16. 16 keshi August 9, 2008 at 6:07 am

    aww…btw I cant carry u anymore…lol cos ya know wut happened to me yday right?

    Keshi.

  17. 17 Preeti August 11, 2008 at 6:26 pm

    Maybe I too pretend.
    But I am not as good as you,
    at least I make sure,I make sure you know…

    BE…AU…TI…FUL…

    all of us are hiding things from each other…it is just good intentions, you see…BUT good intentions always end up causing heartache and hurt…

    as far as changing people… we try to change only those whom we love not realizing that love needs freedom to grow and mature…

    not realizing that to change someone would mean to force the person to alter her/his basic personality…

    and believe me some people have changed for the ones whom they love…

    it basically depends you know… tomorrow if you found that the person whom you love is wearing a colour or listening to a music that you just hate…what would you do…?

  18. 18 Zubin Saxena August 12, 2008 at 10:49 pm

    @preeti..
    Hey..welcome to my blog..
    I am glad that you liked it :)

    *as far as changing people… we try to change only those whom we love not realizing that love needs freedom to grow and mature…*

    true..

    Yes Its true indeed, at times we need to change but how often, is my question?

    @keshi.. :D

  19. 19 enchanted illusionz August 13, 2008 at 9:43 am

    it is not just you, ur words do echo wot every mortal goes through at some point or the other. every single word der makes perfect sense , i donno whch one is more true & beautiful!

  20. 20 Zubin Saxena August 13, 2008 at 1:37 pm

    @enchanted illusionz:
    Thanks a tonne.
    Well, Its good to know that I am not the only one and its good to know that you liked it.
    and WC to my blog..

  21. 21 Nidhi August 14, 2008 at 11:04 pm

    I read ur first comment and felt Keshi already said wht i wanted to.. u got ur answer!!

    Maybe I too pretend.
    But I am not as good as you,
    at least I make sure,
    I make sure you know…

    soem people are goo dto express. they cant keep thing with themselves. and some ppl jus dont react or respond.. i dont knw y!! so cold.. so stoned!! so froozen..

  22. 22 Zubin Saxena August 16, 2008 at 3:53 am

    @Nidhi:
    Hmm..you are right I guess…that’s the way it is..!


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